Funeral Details

Funeral Details

The funeral will be at 10 AM on Tuesday May 23 at Tobin Brothers at 189 Boundary Road North Melbourne. Guests are invited to bring flowers to place on the casket as they arrive. Afterward we will head to the Town Hall Hotel at 33 Errol St North Melbourne for a drink from 12 PM.

RIP JESSAMY COSTAR

Jess died yesterday afternoon, Wednesday May 17 at our home in Kensington. Jess came home from hospital on Saturday morning and spent the last of her time at home. I was with her when she died and so were her Dad Wayne and my Mum Steph. Arthur gave her a kiss before his afternoon nap … Continue reading

The doc signs off

So we’ve finally heard the words I’ve been waiting for: “There is nothing more I can do for you”. My special brand of super stubborn-as-shit cancer is chemo resistant and I’ve lost too much condition to try anything new. Just like that, out of lily pads. The trial seems to not have been yielding adequate … Continue reading

The craic

I’ve been pretty quiet of late due to being laid up with lung problems… Bit hard to party when you can’t draw a breath. It has been progressively worse and, finally, the docs decided it needed to be taken care of. So I spent last Thursday-Sunday in hospital having the fluid drained away from the … Continue reading

Despair vs Determination

The transition between heavily conflicting emotions can be sudden and unexplainable. I may have been feeling rad all day and then, when it comes time for me to go to bed and sleep, I go to pieces instead. Sometimes I feel unkillable. I have no idea if this is because I am deeply in denial, … Continue reading

Apple buckwheat muffins

  Delicious. INGREDIENTS: 4 eggs 1 ripe banana ¼ cup honey ½ cup buckwheat flour 2 tsp baking powder 1 tsp ground cinnamon ¼ tsp salt 1 apple METHOD: Heat oven to 170° celsius Mash banana in a bowl Cube apple ~ about 1cm squares Grease a muffin tray with oil or butter In a separate bowl whisk … Continue reading

Chats with a 2 year old

‘Mama’s puku is sore’. ‘Yes darling, sometimes it is’. ‘Actually’ he said, laying his hands either side of my belly button and peering up at me, ‘It’s better now’.  

A little backslide

I’d been suspecting that things weren’t going so well… I’d lost 10kg but my stomach had not gone down like the rest of me. I’d started to feel occasional cramps and stabs again. My lungs were still not operating properly, rattling whenever I got horizontal. Plus (apologies for the overshare) I’d had some light spotting, something that … Continue reading

Exercise good

The New Science of Exercise by Mandy Oaklander The understanding in cancer research is that healthy lifestyle is a powerful preventative and that exercise undoubtably improves prognosis. This article is a beautiful explanation of current thinking in this area.

A new year

Well, the past few months have been nuts. I had four abdominal effusions done and was in for my third chemo last week. At some point somewhere the pain in my chest blew up to an excruciating level and rendered me useless. It was the most intense physical pain I’ve ever experienced. I learnt that the lungs operate in … Continue reading